Gifts From Hajj

Oleh-oleh dari ibu dan ayahnya teman kami yang kemarin baru kembali dari berhaji. Alhamdulillah... Semoga Insya Allah menjadi haji yang mabrur ya ayah dan ibuk. ^^

Dan semoga mama dan papa bisa pergi haji lagi, tapi kali kedua suatu saat nanti perginya juga bersama kami anak-anaknya. Aamiin. :)

Kurma yang warnanya lebih hitam itu adalah Kurma Ajwa (Kurma Nabi)

Enokitake Mushroom Capcay

Two days ago, me and my mom went to a new supermarket in our region. It still soft opening actually. It's not too far from our home. You can go there by public transportation just in 10-15 minutes. At there, I found this mushroom in its storage near other vegetables. I asked to my mom to let us buy this one just want to taste this mushroom's flavor. In this packaging says that this enoki mushroom are non pesticide product imported from Korea. This mushrooms spread wildly in Japan, Korea and China. It was known as a pest which could damage the agricultural products. But after reasearches, now it known has good advantages for human healthy.

Wikipedia well said:

Enokitake mushrooms contain antioxidants, like ergothioneine. Animal testing has indicated possible applications in the development of vaccines and cancer immunotherapy. Research at the National University of Singapore, first published in 2005, stated that the stalk of the golden needle mushroom contains a large quantity of a protein, named "Five" by the researchers, that helps in the regulation of the immune system. The mushroom also contains flammutoxin, a cytolytic and cardiotoxic protein that has proven to be non-toxic when absorbed orally.

So tonight, I cooked this mushroom for our dinner. Because I have no idea how to cook it due to its origin country's menu, so I cooked it as we usually cooking another mushrooms or vegetables from our country. And voila! Enokitake Mushroom Capcay ready to eat.

Bon apetit ! いただきます! \(^o^)/

Note: I was taken this picture without changing the exposure at functional menu on my camera (I always forget it). So the results make this picture lil' bit dark, I think. Well, maybe I have poor sense of photography. fyuwh. I'll try better next time.

Grandious Rose

Grandious Rose. I just love this slogan. This is the slogan from an event that held today in my apprentice high school where I am about practicing my teaching ability. This high school held an Islamic Festival event for all of high schools in our city. There were 24 schools participated in this great event. Some games that competed in this event are musical poetry, nasyid competition, wall magazine competition, drama competition, and many others. There was one school's performance had stole my heart. And they are the very first contestant from musical poetry competition. (wuhuuw, prokprokprok ^o^). But I didn't see the whole competition untill it finish because I have many things to do with my friend from our tutor today.

Here is some pictures taken from today.

There was another event held in our campus whom speakers is one of my favourite author, Mr. Tere Liye. I had been gifted the Rp.60.000,- ticket from one of my junior at college. One day she surprised me with the ticket in her hand while I was playing with my laptop in our basecamp. But, again, I also didn't make it. I couldn't see him today. This is the only chance for me to see him even for a while and from a far position for this long time admiring his writing. +,+

Well, maybe another time, another chance, another event, and another way I'll meet him our favourite and popular writer, Mr. Darwis Tere Liye.

But today I made a big achievement. I was the first people who came to our apprentice school at 6.20 am. It was still very early. haha. So for next monday, I am the one who is entrusted to keep our room's key and should come early like I did today. haha (^o^).

Sorry for every wrong grammar I made. :p
Sincerly,
F. K.

Dancing Round The Room

For no special reason, I do something joyfull just now in my room.

I am dancing round the room.

I steped with myself in my lovely small and untidy room, like I was the happiest person in this world this afternoon.

I looked a blithsome daughter, a happy damsel, and a beautiful princess in reflection with her lips smiling all the time.

I know her well. She is me.

After this busy day, I got some happy experience while I am in teacher training program in one of the prestigious high school in my town today. I met a new French teacher in vice principal room by chance. So I suddenly talk to her with my poor French word. I can only remember to said je m'appelle and bonjour with confidence to her. And she answered me oui, mais oui!. Yes, I understand this one so well, madam. (^o^) haha.

I wish we could meet each other again next day, madam... :)

And I hope this kind of acceptance from (some) teachers will be last forever (okay, at least untill our last meeting, I'm hoping). :)

I Wish You

I know I just haven't seen it yet God.

Haven't seen the reason behind this long story yet.

But if I may wishing, I wish you my October,

please be calm to my November...

And I wish you, too, my November,

please be calm to my December, and so on...

And I wish you the time,
to my future, you're such a gloomy and mistery,

please be kind, wise, generous and pleasant to my every single breath I take...

And I wish you my Lord,

You are The One whom I can trust and rely on,

so please don't leave me alone.

Never let me go like what Your creature always did.

Guide me, please.
I'm begging You.

... di hari pelepasan mahasiswa P4

The picture was found from Google.

Joyous Time

Have you ever felt like you really want to do something bigger than before in your life? For now, I can say 'yes, I have'. What's that? Lately I really have tried my best on studying foreign language, specificly in Français and Japanesse (^_^). What's with that languages? I don't have any special answer or reason, but I can say I just really love it when I heard people talking with these two languages. I'm following an Speaking Français Twitter Account for a year past, but I still didn't make any significant progress till now, I guess, haha. I still only can say some daily conversation such as 'bonjour', 'coucou' for 'hello' or introduce myself, like 'Je m'apelle blablabla'. And hey, I really love saying 'et patati et patata (e patati e patata)' which is the words for saying 'blablabla', and I have successly deceived my friend for that long words but only means a 'blablabla'. And I'm feeling happy for it :D

Why I suddenly want to learn these two language? Actually I have a really busy time lately. I'm on my way to the second hardest-program phase, or we called it PPL in the middle of this month. But I also want to make sure that my college life will not pass as flat as nothing impressed for my future. So, my three friends and I have made a plan. We are trying to get into Journal Science Competition, and hoping we'll win it. If we could win this competition, we will be in Turkiye for attending the congress. That is the prize! But we still trying our best till now. I can say, the progress is still 15% (fyuh). Honestly, it still nothing. We still can't make sure our groundwork to our preceptor, and yes it does hard. So I pray God to guide and help us to finish what we just started. But among this my lately-busy life, I still have my own time for myself, and I decided to learn languages.

Before I decided to learn Japanesse, I watched some Japan movies with english subtitle, so the people are still talking with Japanesse words. For this long time, I never planned to dream to going to Japan. I always dream to be in Europe. But now, after I watched Nodame Cantabille The Movie (I've read the comic version when I was in SMA / same like Senior High School), and I really fell in love with handsome Chiaki Shinichi-kun and beautifull Juri Ueno-chan couple, so I decided to learn Japanesse autodidacly virtual like what I did with Français, too. Now I wish I could go to Japan, France, and also England. I have such a great joyous time lately with myself in watching movies, videos, listening the sounds of musics, and learning languages all the time in my untidy room (upss...) -_-

Here is some pictures of Nodame Cantabille with Chiaki Shinichi <3, and also actress and actor: Juri Ueno and Hiroshi Tamaki. ^^

aahhh I love this couple <3

Okay now back to our main topic :D

I think it doesn't matter even if you've in best tried studying language but you still can speak it loudly and frequently in your daily life, because the point is you have started trying learn it rather than others who did nothing. It's about the time, 'bout the progress. And it's depend on us. Don't care what people saying on you. Just keep trying. :))

Ganbatte kudasai! Bonne nuit mes amis. ^^

(Do your best! Good night -going to sleep- my friends). ^^

Pasrah

Lama kurasa sepinya hati
Tanpa dirimu
Lama kurasa rindu yang dalam
Menyiksa jiwaku
Lamanya daku kian menahan
Resah gelisah
Yang selama ini selalu saja
Datang menggoda

Dua purnama tanpa terasa
Berlalu sudah
Namun tiada pernah kudengar
Kabarmu oh sayang
Mungkin dirimu telah bersama
Dengan yang lain
Hingga diriku begitu saja
Engkau lupakan

Dimana lagi, kemana lagi
Harus kucari tempat untuk bertanya
Anginpun tiada, burungpun tiada
Semua tiada bawa berita
Kalau begini, terus begini
Aku tak tahu bagaimanakah lagi
Biarlah semua akan kupasrahkan
padaNya Illahi..

(Ermy Kulit)

Sebuah 'Nyawa' yang Kita Sebut sebagai 'Kedewasaan'

Aku kini telah yakin akan sesuatu. Aku tahu, sudah tahu, hanya saja aku kini sudah sedikit lebih tahu dan juga sedikit lebih mengerti. Aku belajar. Ya, tentu saja. Aku belajar karena aku sedang mempersiapkan diri untuk masa depan. Tapi apa yang tadi sudah lebih tahu? Oh... inti sebenarnya singkat saja. Tapi begini, coba dengarkan aku.

Pendiam, cerewet, manja, suka ngambek, mudah terharu, mudah menangis, kadang kekanak-kanakan, sok imut, blak-blakan, sok manis, sok baik, tegas, rajin, introvert, kadang teguh pendirian, kadang percaya pada 'prinsip kedua', tiba-tiba menjadi bijak, sok tua, dewasa dan banyak lagi lainnya. Kalian tahu apa maksud semua itu? Semua itu adalah sebagian dari jenis sifat dan sikap manusia. Semua itu (tentu saja) ada pada diri setiap manusia. Lalu apa masalahnya? Apa yang membedakan pemiliknya? Masalahnya dan yang membedakannya adalah pemiliknya. Manusianya.

Lalu semua sifat dan sikap tadi punya masing-masing waktunya, tempatnya, situasinya, sudut pandang orang-orang, lingkungannya, dan pengaruh orang-orang lain yang berkaitan dengan sistem kehidupan individu tersebut. Terutama kemudian adalah kadarnya. Siapa yang mengaturnya? Diri kita sendirilah yang mengaturnya. Kadang butuh waktu yang lama, kadang butuh waktu yang sangat singkat. Maka untuk memahami seseorang, kita tidak bisa hanya menilainya disaat salah satu sifat yang tidak kita sukai itu muncul padanya, lalu kita selalu 'menyalahkan'nya. Karena mungkin saja sifat bagus yang dimilikinya belum kita temukan, belum muncul, dan belum bisa kita lihat pada waktu itu.

Lalu aku pun juga membuat sebuah kesimpulan. Bukan sekedar kesimpulan asal, tapi aku membuatnya setelah aku cukup banyak melihat kejadian. Bukankah sudah kubilang aku terus belajar? Ya, aku tidak mau disebut anak kecil yang tidak belajar apa-apa. Karena sesungguhnya juga aku sudah bukan lagi anak kecil. Aku menyimpulkan, walau ini adalah kesimpulan lama, bahwa tuanya umurmu belum menjamin dewasanya kehidupanmu. Ya, aku setuju. Tuanya umurmu tak selalu sejalan dengan semakin meningkatnya kedewasaanmu. Dan banyak orang-orang yang begitu. Getting older doesn't always mean you are also getting mature.

Lalu apakah orang-orang yang selalu berbicara tentang kedewasaan dan mengaku-aku dirinya tergolong orang dewasa itu sudah benar-benar dewasa? Bisa kukatakan, mungkin mereka juga belum dewasa. Mengapa? Karena sejatinya kedewasaan sama dengan sifat-sifat baik lainnya. Bukan diri kita sendiri yang melihat, tapi orang lain lah yang melihat dan menilai. Salahkah sikap mereka? Oh, tentu tidak, karena begitulah manusia. Semua tergantung pada 'sudut pandang' siapa saja.

Kedewasaan tumbuh seiring kau berjalan dengan waktu. Seiring kau berpacu dengan waktu. Seiring kau bertaut dengan wajah kehidupan. Apakah menjadi masalah jika kau tidak menjadi dewasa? Ya, itu akan masalah hanya jika tidak pada tempatnya dan waktunya. Oh, mengapa demikian? Lihat saja orang-orang tua kalian. Disaat mereka sedang bersama-sama, mereka pun bahkan bisa lebih kekanakan daripada remaja yang baru mengenal percintaan. Jika melihat peristiwa itu, salahkah ketidak dewasaan mereka? Tentu tidak. Itulah warna kehidupan. Tingkat kedewasaanmu bergantung kepada dengan siapa kau sedang bersama. Ada sebuah pepatah "My level maturity is depend on who I'm with". Kata "with" ini memiliki makna ganda jika kau pahami. Tentulah kalian tahu makna 'with' pertama. Bagaimana jika yang kedua adalah bermakna 'with-out' alias 'without'?. Tingkat kedewasaanmu kau bagi dengan tingkat bermanja-manja dan kekanak-kanakanmu saat kau sedang bersama dengan orang lain. Begitulah manusia, sering butuh perhatian manusia lainnya. Tentu saja, saat kau sedang "tidak bersama-sama" orang lain, kau tidak membagi dan menggantungkan kedewasaan dan sikap tangungjawabmu kepada orang lain. Kau menjatuhkannya hanya pada dirimu sendiri. Sudah seharusnya saat seseorang sendiri, tingkat kedewasaannya berada di puncak tertinggi. Karena memang begitulah sistemnya. Memang begitulah waktu-waktu yang tepatnya untuk tiap-tiap sifat dan sikap itu 'muncul' dan berada.

Maka ku katakan, jangan harap kau menemukan 'kedewasaan' penuh pada orang yang sedang bersama, karena dia membagi kedewasaan itu dengan sikap kekanak-kanakannya dengan orang(-orang) lain tersebut. Pun dengan orang yang tidak bersama-sama dengan orang lain. Karena semua 'nyawa' itu kita sama-sama memilikinya. Tinggal tergantung pada diri kita masing-masing.

Begitulah sistemnya. Begitulah prinsip kerjanya jika saja kita ingin mencoba mengerti, memahami dan menghayatinya.

Jika aku salah memahami, mungkin 'nyawa' agung itu belum sepenuhnya bersemayam di dalam diri ini. Harap dimaklumi. Aku juga sama, seorang manusia biasa yang masih terus mencari dan belajar.

Eleven Weeks after that Day; A Letter From Your Forgotten Memories

Eleven weeks after that day

I have been through a hard life… yes, it’s hurt me

I tried not to down, raise my head above, yes it’s hard

Just to show them I’m strong enough

I tried to reassemble my heart

I tried not to tell you everything in my mind like I used to

To make you feel free from every what you think that’s your responsibility

And I just don’t want to be a spoiled girl in your eyes

Oh dear… I tried to have a busy life

Just to make them stop asking me about you, asking about me

Just to make me forget about you, even for a while

Because when the night comes, when I start laying on my bed,

Your memory has been waited me there

And I meet you again in these memories for thousand times

I tried to erase your story

But your shadow always shade my day, every single day

And then I realize I can’t hide from yours

Eleven weeks after that day

When you carelessly say goodbye to me

When you say that words again for many times so I stop count

I must admit I still dream about you even if I don’t want it

And they don’t know how I feel

And you don’t know how I live

I pursuit my happiness, but my happiness are left behind

Then I hesitate to decide my choice

Should I come back for it, or just leave it behind and pursuit the new one?

I force myself to turn around and start to collect what still be my happiness behind

Lonesome through this long long road, remembering the old time in this silent path

Continuing the journey with a heavy heart

Every single step I take, I acknowledge I still always think about you

And what about you there? Do you miss me like I miss you here?

You don’t miss me, do you?

Oh dear, of course… you don’t miss me...

I don’t know how you feel, so I’ll just have to believe somewhere out there you’re thinking of me

Dear you there who ever made my life such a perfect one

Eleven weeks after that day

Time takes time, and I can do nothing but just only stare a far at your life

All I can do is just staring at this story, our story

Or maybe it’s all mine from the beginning

Now you’ve been far away from all of the memories, leaving what’s behind

No, I am not leave you. It wasn’t me. Yes, you leave me far behind

I am no longer next to you, I can’t chase you

And I think you never planned to keep me, right? Yes, you…

When you realize, maybe I have been gone for real

Then I only become a little piece of those your forgotten memories

Or maybe I’ve meant nothing at all

Will you keep your heart? Will I keep my heart? Will us keep our heart till the last? Only God knows.
But I will try my best, do my best in everything in my life now. And I hope you'll see me with a smile in your lips someday, if we ever meet again.

Dear you somewhere I don’t know

Dear you someone I still pray of your happiest life

Dear you someone I still love, and it may last a month of Sundays, a year and a day.

I can't promise you, too.
Only God knows.

Eleven weeks after that day, the day you went away from my beautiful life... and left me behind.

Thursday, September, 26, 2013 : late night. 23.32